Did he rape me or did i want it?

i was taking a walk outside and someone from school walked up to me. he said shh and made out with me, so i was like okay cause i knew him well i had a crush on him. He invited me to his house and we went to his room. He took my shirt off and then my skirt and underwear, then he licked me and kissed me. after that i woke up and i think he had sex with me, what the hell am i supposed to think about this?!?